Being Your Own Harshest Critic

Dpe6SW2V4AA13PzOne of the worst dangers I’ve faced when writing (this started about a year and a half ago), is being too harsh on myself when it comes to critiquing my writing. And while critiquing your work is not a bad thing, overthinking and being harsh on yourself is.

Let me explain what I mean…

I’m a very outgoing, energetic, and bubbly person, and an extremely passionate writer.

But.

My confidence in my abilities and my stories’ quality averages from 1% to an occasional 0%. ZERO.

At this point, you’re probably sitting back in shock and saying “What?! But you’re a published author!”

My answer to that is, “Okay… and? What’s your point?”

I’m published, yes. But I’m fifteen years old. I’m a kid. I’m insecure with my work because I’m a tiny assisted-self published author in a world of huge successful authors. I’m not experienced. I’m not super smart. I’m lacking in most areas because I’m young and dumb, and I don’t have the advantages that an adult writer would have.

That made it extremely hard to get where I am, and even harder to get motivation to write now. It’s not easy to have the courage to put yourself out there in the form of writing, where pouring out your heart and soul into your work is going to happen no matter what path you take in expressing your creative self.

Being a small fish in a big ocean (it’s not a pond, it’s an ocean) makes you want to strive to get bigger. And to get bigger, you do what you have to do. When that’s the mindset obtained, it’s easy to convince yourself that have to have perfection.

You become harsher on yourself.

I did.

I suffered for it.

I stopped writing for about four months last year. I rarely posted blogs, or wrote on my stories, because I felt like I wasn’t turning out anything good enough for others to read. Nothing I did was ever enough; I could never make it good enough.

I pressured myself too much. And it took a near-collapse of my creative brain and a group of amazing writers, artists, and friends, to motivate me and show me that I could do incredible things if I would just let myself try. One specifically got on my tail and hammered into my brain that I couldn’t just stop writing, because that would stop the growth of my ideas and it would be far too easy to quit for good.

It’s okay to look at your writing and try to make it better. But you can’t be too harsh on yourself, or it’ll make things ten times worse and your writing can suffer as well as your mind. When you write, just take a deep breath, and let your creativity flow… without fear.

Soon we will be talking a little more about this, on the topic of writing and editing your Vomit Draft. (Don’t ask how we got the name…)

But until then, just let your creativity run wild. Amazing things can come from it.

Believe in yourself.

Don’t hold back.

Never forget to take courage.

-Lorryn Holt

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